where the wildflowers grow and
water meets trampled moss
tired from travelers feet
exploring the curves of this river
rounded rocks smoothed
calmed from water’s presence
over and over again
forming breaks in rapids
dotting her current
where worries are carried away
tears of grief shared at her bedside
she holds them tenderly
whispered memories gone by
held in hope filled hearts
she protects them
infusing them into the water she carries
tender moments tucked into
her depth
making space for each one
her shores a safety
only offered by her

The Bad Thought: 
Life is hard and frustrating and it feels like it won’t get better. I can’t see the light and I don’t know where I’m going or what’s next, or how to get there.

The Good Thought:
like all people who have walked this Earth
in good times and in challenging ones
i will walk
one foot in front of the other
in the direction that feels
true to me
and though i may not know
where this road ends
i embrace the magic of uncertainty
of watching life unfold 
as it happens
without expectation yet
immense hope
held in a heart meant for
important things

i will remember what is important to me
i will remember that the sun rises each morning
to usher in a new day
i will remember that seasons change and
feelings pass
i will remember that nothing is forever
that time is finite and my desire is
to spend this precious resource well
loving and laughing and doing good
in a world riddled with hurt
knowing it will not be easy

there will be hard days
sad thoughts
and still
perseverance
because what i do matters
who i am matters
i will not let doubt
steal the belief
that there is good
to be done
kindness to be shared
i will live it
and breathe it
and walk my own path

I want to remember the way it feels
To kiss her chubby little cheeks
The exact pressure her tiny hands
Use to grab my finger
The weight of her whole
Body laying on mine
That superwoman feeling being
Someones ultimate safe space
So cozy she falls asleep and would 
Stay all night if I let her 
And I do sometimes
Watching her sleepy eyes flutter
Her belly breathe up and down
Memorizing every moment
While she’s little 

Monday mornings 
Feel like fresh starts and
Sunrises glowing of
Endless possibilities
Sipping slow
Moving slower
Taking my time
With this day
Greetings from a
Grateful heart to
Be here
Breathe here
Tiny feet
Shifting down plush stairs
Goodmorning mama
Goodmorning babies
I've missed you
Wrapping arms around
Smaller ones
Feels like love and honey